Back Tracks: Highchool (OPM)

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The excruciating pain of waiting

It has been 1 month and 11 days since I wore the academic gown marking my accomplishment with my chosen course 4 years ago. Just like any fresh graduates, I've never been so enthusiastic to start a life on my own. My plan was to go get a job, save money, help my parents and eventually move out from my aunt's apartment. I never thought the so called "real world" could be this hard. I thought people were just exaggerating with the phrase "mas marami ka ng ka-kumpetensya" ("you'll have more people to compete with"). 

I am so pissed with what's going on with my divine search for employment. But hey, people can't blame me with this. It’s not about the money (money,money,money. -Jesse J.), it is about not feeling being useless. I am not used to this kind of set up where all I can do is sit and wait and feel its excruciating pain and paranoia. I have submitted my resume to 24 companies (both online and not) and why is it one of them haven't called me yet for an interview? Some of you might think that I am impatient. But sad to say, Yes! I am impatient. I am impatient to learn, I am impatient to be productive, I am impatient to grow (maybe not physically, mentally will do), I am impatient to be in the mainstream of professionals who make this country (at least) great of its people. But why is it some people doesn’t have to experience this? I guess, there are people who can be really called as ‘the lucky few’ and sadly, I am not one of them (yet?).

Well, I think it is my fate to wait and be immersed in boredom. It might cost me to consume my ever so long patience. But after all this waiting and paranoia, I can still see myself working. Maybe not today, but as sure as I am born it will be someday, definitely one of this days.